When I leave home, I will be leaving forever. I will visit, but I will never live there again. It’s weird to think that I will not see my parents every day. I’m not scared of being independent, in fact, I am excited to live by myself. I will only have to take care of myself, meaning I won’t have to wash dishes that my whole family accumulated and I only have to clean a small space and not a whole house. My biggest concerns are, doing badly in college or university. Since it is so expensive I feel very responsible to keep up with my studies so I don’t waste my parents’ money. I am excited to graduate because that summer hopefully my family and I will take a trip to Europe since the schools will most likely not be able to take me. I’m not too certain about what I want to be yet, but I want to help the world in some way. It worries me that I don’t know yet, I have some ideas but nothing set in stone. I want to figure it out so I can use my goal to motivate myself as of now. What if I find out what I want to be but, while I’m learning and studying for it, I become uninterested in it. I say I’m going to study and try hard but saying isn’t doing. I know If I get into a college or a university I will have to try hard because it’s my whole life. What I chose to do will determine the path for the rest of my life. What if I’m like that girl in the movie “Divergent”, everyone has a passion but she could be anything. The girl in the movie has to leave her parents forever, and In away I will be leaving my parents forever. Obviously, I’ll see them but I’ll never live with them again.
I’m not the most outgoing person, but I feel like I’ll be able to make friends if I need to. Although I do have some fears I am also excited to be on my own for the first time. I want to make friends based on common interests not just because we see each other five days a week. But to have the same passion for certain things. I want to have fun but I also want to keep good grades. I will stay connected with some of my friends from my old town and I am still connected to them now, I’m not going to stay connected with many people from my current town. I know it’s sad but, during quarantine, I realized I don’t talk to many people here on a daily basis. They’re still my friends I just know that I’m going to drift away from many of them. I know and hope that I will still talk and hang out with a few of my friends here. Who knows I could develop some strong friendships before I graduate.
I’m hoping that by the time I leave home, Covid-19 will be dissolved. I know the world is forever changed and things will never be the way they used to be but, you can always dream. Overall I feel I will do fine on my own, I will adapt to that lifestyle and learn how to thrive and grow on my own.