I was completely ecstatic. I had just finished texting Allison about how great of a time we were going to have this weekend. She didn’t seem as excited as I was but I was way too caught up in my own emotions that I didn’t think twice about it. I rushed up to my room and grabbed my bag that was on the verge of exploding, and raced downstairs. I could just envision it. Allison and I relaxing in the hot springs surrounded by the gorgeous sight of the rocky mountains and just getting to talk to each other, without anyone else around. We hadn’t gotten to just sit down and talk a while. I kissed my mom on the cheek goodbye, and hopped into the car where my dad was waiting for me.
I replied. It was about a thirty minute drive to Allison’s, so I decided I’d pop some headphones in to make the time go faster. About twenty-five minutes had passed and I knew we were getting closer because we had already passed the weeping willow that sat on the corner of Allison’s cul-de-sac. As we neared closer and we were passing the many streets of identical houses I caught a glimpse of distracting red and blue lights, flashing in the reflection of one of the houses windows. I immediately turned my head and ripped out my headphones in a panic. My heart sank and it felt like my face became 4 shades paler. Right in front of Allison’s house was a row of two ambulances and three police vehicles.
Our car came to slow stop in the middle of the road. I instantly began to think about the worst possible scenarios. I jumped out of the car and ran as fast as my legs could carry me to her driveway. There were three officers that attempted to tell me to stay back but I completely ignored them. Their entire yard had been taped off with bright yellow police tape, but I acted like it wasn’t there and ran right through it. I was just about to reach her front door when I heard my dads voice yell,
I turned my head for a split second to face him and that’s when I heard a thud at the entrance of the house. I whipped my head forward to see my best friend laying on a stretcher. She had an oxygen mask covering her mouth and her body was wrapped up in blankets. She didn’t look the slightest bit awake, let alone alive. Her face had lost all colour and her eyes laid indented into their sockets. I reached my now vibrating hand over to hers and felt a sickening coldness. One of the police officers aggressively grabbed my arm and began guiding me back to my dad. I was jolting my body sporadically and screaming at the top of my lungs, but it seemed impossible to escape the officer’s grip
When I had reached my dad I ran into his arms with my face completely wet with tears that had been cascading down my fiery red cheeks. My nose was dripping with snot, and I began to feel light headed. In the corner of my eye I saw Allison’s parents hop into the ambulance, and I could see the absolute devastation on their face. My dad asked me to stay and wait by the car while he went and spoke to one of the police officers. I couldn’t make out what they were saying, my vision was blurry from the what seemed to be endless crying, but I knew something was wrong. As he was approaching me I asked him wearily,
He replied hesitantly,
I cleared my throat
“Allison what dad?”
“Allison has committed suicide.”
At that moment it felt like the world as I knew it fell apart, and my entire body collapsed to the ground almost instantaneously.
I didn’t reply. I couldn’t reply. I just laid there, curled up into a ball, in a puddle of my own sweat and tears. My lips were quivering, and I sniffled every 5 seconds to keep my nose from running. How could I be so oblivious? I couldn’t stop myself from thinking that I could have helped, that if I would been there for her more I could have prevented her from hurting herself. She never looked or acted like she was having problems of any kind.She didn’t seem to different at all. She still came to school everyday the same happy Allison I knew, I mean of course she had her off days, but who doesn’t? I guess I was wrong, and because I was too blind to see what she was going through, I lost my best friend.